#i cannot draw angst for the life of me lol

[aeroargonic]

Don't get jealous, it's not a good look on you.

[non-un-topo]

Lately all I’ve wanted to write is dark stuff, but not in the fun way. I think it’s the mental illness acting up again.

[audrey-carr1]

Good Luck, Baroness

A/N: This is the other side of my Chappell-inspired fic. They are not related to each other except for the fact that they were inspired by Rebecca saying she loves Chappell Roan. For extra feeling, listen to this orchestral cover while reading: Good luck, Babe. It'll help set the mood lol

Summary: At a party, you try to warn Hetty of a life-altering event for her. Hetty alters the trajectory of both of your lives instead.

warnings: fem!reader, Angst, all hurt no comfort, young hetty

word count: 2.5k+

1893

Hetty cannot sleep, or atleast she cannot sleep well. Her mind constantly racing with thoughts and worries. She has tried countless remedies, and nothing seems to ease her troubles. She is not the best mother to her children, she does not have close friends, and her marriage is on the rocks. A stark contrast to when she was younger. Hetty was always being called upon by friends especially one in particular. Your name hangs on the tip of Hetty’s tongue, almost bitter to the taste as she has tried to forget it without much success. A lump forms in Hetty’s throat as she remembers that dreaded night almost 18 years ago. Getting up from her bed Hetty makes her way to her desk and quickly pulls out her stationary. 

1876

You watched as Hetty charms the room of the party. Hetty has always been the better socialite, while you preferred being a wallflower. Your mother always scolded and wondered why you for not putting yourself in the view of potential suitors. It’s not like you could tell her that you and your best friend have been romantically involved for over a year now. 

This night, however, Hetty has not spoken one word to you barely acknowledging your presence. A little fire burns within you as you watch her flirt with the men around her. You hear the orchestra start to play, and you then feel the presence of someone next to you. 

“Excuse me, but I noticed you from across the room and I was wondering if you would like to dance,” The man says. You would like to say No, but you do not want your ear talked off by your mother if she were to find out you declined a possible suitor. You watch as Hetty makes her way to the center of the room to join the other dancers. You plaster the sweetest smile on your face before saying, “ I would love to.” 

The man takes your hand as he leads you to the dance floor, and it’s by chance that you and Hetty are in each other’s line of sight. She finally acknowledges your presence, surprised to find you on the dance floor with someone. You decide it is your turn to ignore her, and you give your attention to your dance partner. You cannot remember if he as introduced himself, but you also cannot bring yourself to care. 

Hetty watches you glide across the room with the ease of a practiced dancer. She snorts to herself as she knows that you hate dancing, at least not with her. A bit of jealousy forms within her as she watches you give your entire attention to him. Her nails dig into her partner’s suit jacket as she watches you smile and bat your eyes at someone who is not her. Hetty realizes her tenseness and takes a relaxing breath. She tries to focus on her own dance partner, but she finds it nearly impossible to break her eyes away from you. She must admit that you do look beautiful tonight. The color of your dress compliments your skin tone, and your is hair curled and pinned in an updo that shows off the delicate features of your face. Even from a distance, Hetty can tell that the light of the room gives your eyes a warmth that could melt glaciers on sight. Hetty is absolutely smitten by your beauty. In her admiration, she notices as your partner’s hand slowly grazes your back, and Hetty’s jaw clenches. Hetty tries to tell herself that she has no right to be jealous. Especially after what she is about to do to you. 

Even still Hetty cannot draw her eyes from you. She has never knew her little wallflower could dazzle the room in such a way. The swell of the music along with her predicament made the room feel a bit stifling. She watched as your dance partner whispered something in your ear, and how you blushed. Hetty now realized why you had would always stare daggers at the men who would do the same to her. Only Hetty wanted to be the one who could make you blush or bring out the melody of your laughter. Hetty quickly shakes her head of her thoughts. She cannot think like that. Not tonight.

The dance soon ends and everyone applauds the musicians. Hetty watches as you excuse yourself and resume your post at the back of the room, and your dance partner going elsewhere. Hetty goes back to her group and continues the conversation from before.

Finally you allow your attentions go back to Hetty, and for a moment you two lock eyes. You smile at her, and she does the same. You both quickly avert your gazes, but in your peripheral you see a man lean in closer to Hetty to whisper something in her hear that makes Hetty cover her mouth hiding her laughter. You sharply inhale at the gesture, but soothe yourself. You know where her loyalty truly lies and it is with you.

Quite frankly you enjoy watching the party-goers, it is much easier to obtain gossip if you are not perceived as a threat. Although, the latest thread of gossip you hear almost causes you to leave the party all together. You have learned that Hetty’s father is considering a marriage between her and Elias to secure a land deal.

A small fire starts inside of you as you want to throttle Hetty’s father and Elias for treating women as property. You wish you could tell them, society, and their rules to screw off, but you knew better. That would only cause shame upon yourself. If it were even to get out that you were attracted to the fairer sex, that would be enough to bring shame and misfortune upon your family. 

While you are so deep in your thoughts you do not see Hetty finally break away from the group that she is been talking with and making her way over to you.

“I wonder if the men I’ve been to talking can feel you stare daggers into them” Hetty says quietly standing next you. You try to hide the surprise from your face.

“I hope they can,” You say quickly, your lips in a slight pout.

“(y/n), stop pouting. You know how these parties work. Nothing has changed, and nothing will change,” Hetty says her eyes scanning the room. There is a beat of silence between you as you ponder if you should tell Hetty now or later. You decide on the former.

“I need to speak with you privately,” You say looking up at her, “It is urgent.”

“Lead the way,” Hetty says wishing she had a bit of wine to settle her nerves. 

The two of you go outside and into the gardens. You spot a bench underneath a tree, and pull Hetty along. 

“What is so important that we must talk so privately?” Hetty asks. 

“You know any other time you would be overjoyed to sneak away. To have a moment  to reach a hand under my dress and have one under yours,” You quip. You see Hetty blush underneath her pale makeup, and you smile to yourself. 

“I pulled you out here, because I have heard some gossip about you that you need to be aware of,” You say in a hushed tone even if you two were the only people around. 

“Well please enlighten me, you know I hate to be kept waiting,” Hetty says.

“I have heard that your father is intending to marry you off to your cousin Elias,” You tell her.

Hetty sits in silence, and you assume it is because she is as stunned as you were when you heard of the arrangement. Hetty clears her throat and avoids your gaze. Your eyebrows furrow in confusion as she has never avoided your eyes before. 

“Hetty I did not mean to upset you with this news, I only needed you to know so you were not surprised later,” You explain. 

“I have known,” Hetty says quietly still not meeting your gaze.

“Excuse me?” You say not trusting your hearing.

“I have known of this arrangement. In fact it has already been solidified. Elias is set to propose any day now to make it official,” Hetty says finally meeting your eyes.

Your eyes begin to buzz as your brain tries to process what it is you just heard.

“How long have you known?” You ask. That tiny fire inside threatening to become an inferno. 

“I wanted to tell you sooner it is ju-” Hetty stumbles over her words trying to find the right words to say to not further upset you.

“How long have you known?” You ask again slightly louder. You quickly come to your senses as you remember where it is you are. 

“Six months,” Hetty admits.

“Six months? We’ve been together a year, so that is practically half our relationship,” You stand up quickly and Hetty quickly reaches her hand out to steady you.

“Six months! Hetty that is almost half a year,” You are beyond astonished at the news.

“I am aware how time works, my dear,” Hetty says a bit annoyed. Hetty usually loved how you were always so factual, but in this moment it only shows how poorly Hetty has been treating you. The last thing Hetty wanted was to talk about this predicament let alone talk about it at a party. This is last place she would chosen for a lover’s quarrel if that is what you could call this. 

“Do not “my dear” me. You have been keeping secrets. I tell you everything!” Your voice is edgier now. Raising in pitch as the fire within you blazes.

“Will you please keep your voice down,” Hetty says standing up to face you, “The last thing we need is an audience.”

Hetty sees the fire behind your eyes, and cannot stand to be the one who put it there. Still she maintains her posture, and does not show an ounce of regret.!

“What are you embarrassed? Does our friendship mean nothing to you? Has the last year meant anything to you?”  You ask, and Hetty does not answer. 

You try again, “Do I mean anything to you?”

You tried to ignore the bitter taste in your mouth at Hetty’s continued silence. Hetty tried to keep a strong front, but her resolve was starting to fall. 

“Hetty this is a mistake, you cannot marry him,” You plead grabbing her hands. 

“And whom do you think I should marry instead? You? Don’t be preposterous,” Hetty scoffs quickly freeing her hands from your hold.  

“You do not need to be cruel Hetty,” You say blinking away tears. Hetty does not get to make you cry let alone see it. Not tonight. 

“There is nothing cruel when I speak the truth. What future do we have together? The answer to that question is that we do not have one. What we had was a momentary lapse in judgement and sanity. I wager  a kiss from a boy would be feel better than what I feel for you” Hetty fights back the bile that threatens to rise to the back of her throat.

 She hates fighting with you, but she knows that you are not one to back down easy. The only way to truly break things off is to make the conditions of the “relationship” so unfavorable that you would leave. Even if that was the last thing Hetty wanted you to do. 

“You could kiss hundreds of boys Hetty, and nothing would change and you know that. You like girls and only girls or atleast that is what you told me. So please enlighten me to joy you will feel being under Elias as he ruts on you like some animal,” You say.

The thought of your words alone threaten to make Hetty sick, and she cannot believe agreed to make it your words her future. Still Hetty doesn’t say anything. She knows that you are right but she would never admit it. At least not yet.

You do not wait for an answer before continuing, “Actually this is not your fault. It is my fault for believing anything you had to say, as I have come to realize that you did not mean it. You are selfish and opportunistic. I should have known that you would jump for marriage if money was involved. Elias is not the only one who comes from a wealthy family Hetty.”

“No, you do not get to be a helpless victim. I did not have a choice in this matter. Either I say yes or my family faces financial ruin,” Hetty says. 

The fire inside you is raging. Burning anything that it is its path. “You have a sister. An older sister who is unmarried. She should be the one marrying Elias, not you. That is the rules and you know it, or is that you could not bear to see your sister have a life that you want. You can flaunt that you have do not have choices all you want, but we both know the truth. As a matter of fact, that is what you have been doing. You chose to enter this relationship with me. You chose to lay in bed and spread your legs, and you did not dawdle your time spreading mine. You chose to break my heart now when we could have ended this six months ago. You chose to string me along like toy for six months.”

The fire has engulfed every part of you with no signs of stopping. Your words continue to flow from your mouth with ease, “I should have known this would end badly. but Hetty please know that one day you are going to wake up and realize that you are nothing more than his wife. No longer the boisterous Hetty who charms the room, or the Hetty who is fun. You’ll just be Hetty, Elias the robber barons wife. The conniving, womanizers wife. And when that empty feeling eats at you, just know that I told you so. When you think about where it all went wrong I want you to think back on this moment. You chose this.”

You laugh bitterly to yourself, “I guess it beats being Hetty the lover or Hetty the friend or better yet Hetty the sappho,” You say angrily. 

A crack sounds through the air, and you feel a sting cross your cheek. You place your hand where it stings, and tears well up in your eyes. Hetty’s heart hammers in her chest. She did not mean for it to go this far, she would have never thought to lay a hand on you. Hetty began to feel cornered by your words. Your very truthful words. Hetty looks just as shocked as you are before she tries reaching out for you. She feels her chest crack open as you step back. 

Before you can get too far from Hetty, you see Elias coming down the stairs with a group of people behind him. 

“This cannot be happening right now,” You say under your breath. Your head dips low before coming back up with a mask of indifference. 

“Hetty, I have been looking all over for you,” Elias says once he reaches her. He looks over to you and nods in acknowledgement, and you do the same. You feel your heart begin to pound wildly in your chest as you watch Elias take Hetty’s hand and kneel to the ground. You watch Hetty glance at you and she notices your eyes are trained to her hand. 

“Hetty will you do me the honour of being my wife?” Elias asks with no hesitation. Hetty knows that this sweet act Elias is putting on is only for show for those who are watching. You feel as if all the air has been knocked from your chest. You already know the answer that Hetty will give, and you feel as if you are dying inside. The only thing keeping you from going cold is the raging fire within. Hetty does not delay in answering, and is surprised when Elias kisses her. You hear the cheers of everyone that came to watch the proposal, and you quickly fix your face to match their excitement. You try to leave to go back inside, but Hetty’s hand stops you. You look up to her, and you see a pleading look in her eyes. 

“Elias would you mind if I talked with my friend for a moment? I promise I’ll send your fiance your way when we are finished,” You say trying to disguise my loathing under a tone of sweetness.

“Of course,” Elias says adjusting his suit jacket. He turns on his heel and follows everyone else inside. Once they are inside, you turn to Hetty.

“What is it Hetty? Do you want to me see your ring sparkle in the moonlight? Do you want to giggle like schoolgirls over your upcoming nuptials?” Your tone quickly change from sweet to biting. 

“Please, I do not want to argue anymore,” Hetty pleads tries to interlock your fingers but you pull your hand away. 

“Hetty you do not know what you want, and I am not going to wait around for you to figure it out. Maybe you are right to end things between us, but I also should have had a say. Good night Hetty. Go find your fiance,” You say turning on your heel and entering the party. 

“Y/n…” Hetty says but she is so overwhelmed she does not know what else to say. 

“Good luck, Baroness,” You say walking away for good.

1893

You sit in your office at your desk looking at your blank stationary paper. As an author you rarely found yourself at a loss for words, at least not until now. You had received Hetty’s letter a week ago, and you had told yourself you were not going to read it. After reading it, you told yourself you were not going to respond. Now as you sit in your office chair pen in hand to write a response, you wonder why you are giving yourself such grief over a woman who broke your heart almost twenty years ago.

Caving in you finally push away from your desk, and walk towards the telephone. You take a deep breath as you pick up the receiver and dial the number Hetty had left in her letter. 

Once the call is connected you hear a now mature familiar voice say “Woodstone residence, Henrietta speaking.”

“I told you so,” You say releasing the breath you had been holding.

Hetty knew your voice instantly, and felt years of emotions bubble to the surface. Hetty could barely rejoice that you had telephoned before the line went dead leaving Hetty speechless and alone.

-END-

A/N: It took all of me to not give this a happy ending. Let me know your thoughts in the comments! Ciao

[thedragonagebigbang]

Bang Creator Interview: Tumblr: @mortalitasdeeznuts 

The Collaboration period has begun! In these quiet months before works are due, we want to foster a sense of excitement, camaraderie, and celebration among our participants. To that end, all participants were given the option of a formal interview by our mod, Dema, or an informal “ask-game” survey. We hope you enjoy getting to know our phenomenal creators as much as we have!

Interview with Ascindio

Ascindio and Dema talk symbolism in art, the collaboration process, and strategies for constant improvement 

Dema: So first: welcome to the bang! We're about a week into the collaboration period – how is that going?

Ascindio: It's going great! I have a very clear image of what I want to do, just waiting to see if my writer is cool with the idea. The story they've written is wonderful.

Dema: Without spoiling too much, can you describe your idea using 3 words or less?

Ascindio: Disappointment, hurt, chasm. [EDIT: there has since been a pivot! The new words are: almost, chance, tentative. But since we were angsty before we're rolling with it. -Dema out.-]

Dema: MMMMM delicious.

Ascindio: I do so love angst.

Dema: I am reminded of that very gorgeous Lavellan piece you did. What is the strategy you use for conveying that angst?

Ascindio: Ooowh thank you! I loved doing that one. For angst, I wait until I have an idea/feeling that just grips me and I kind of churn it over and over in my brain until I can start to form a visual. I am very much in love with symbolism, so pretty much every emotional piece I do is bursting with it, hahaha. I have to have a very clear idea of what I want to get across.

Dema: Where do you draw your symbolism from? Is it all from the DA lore itself, or are you incorporating symbols from other sources?

Ascindio: Mostly the symbolism is from artistic choices. For example, in the one that you mentioned, she is the focal point, but the frame is much larger than her. I'm trying to show her loneliness and how sometimes she feels small, regardless of how Grand she is. She's an unwilling religious figure, hence the halo.

Dema: The orb halo is SO cool. 

Ascindio: There's more, obviously, but just to give an idea of what I mean. Pretty much every choice I make in the composition is deliberate.

Dema: I love that! And so exciting that you already have an idea for your Bang piece. Do you do many collaborations?

Ascindio: I don't, but I'd LOVE to do more, I looove collaborating and making art with/for others!

Dema: Is this your first Bang?

Ascindio: Yes!

Dema: What about the collaboration process is appealing, as an artist?

Ascindio: One of my favorite things is the challenge of trying to bring to life something from someone else's brain, and then put my own spin on it. I just find a lot of satisfaction in it. It's like one of the best ways I know how to connect with people.

Dema: That's one of my favorite parts of this kind of event, too. It's so fun to relate to the specific visuals of the fic!

Ascindio: Yes!

Dema: Does the timeline feel intimidating at all, or are you pretty comfortable?

Ascindio: The only thing that's intimidating me is that I need to keep it secret for so long 😂 I usually work on a piece for like 10 ish hours over one or two days and then immediately post it because I have No patience lol!

Dema: Oh yes, the secret-keeping is so hard. I understand! But the reveals are SO exciting when they do happen.

Ascindio: I cannot WAIT to see what everyone does.

Dema: When you work on pieces for yourself, especially in long stretches like that, do you have a particular environment you prefer? Any creative rituals?

Ascindio: I just recently set up a new little work station, with a couple monitors and I love it. So I have a rainy fireplace ambience on YouTube going, then I have a spread of inspiration/reference collage app I use called PureRef and I either listen to music or have some tutorials going from an art patreon I subscribe to, and I try to put a new skill into every piece I do. And I paint on a huion using ibis paint.

Dema: That is such a great idea to incorporate a specific new skill or technique into each new piece. Does that keep it fresh for you? Or is the goal just to keep improving?

Ascindio: It is my idea of fun haha, also I am always completely unsatisfied with just about everything I paint. So yes, it's definitely also to try to improve little by little without overwhelming myself.

Dema: I am very sympathetic to that feeling, haha. What was the latest new skill you tried out?

Ascindio: Owh okay so the latest has been working on creating a more harmonious color palette! I've always had a hard time with color theory as I'm self taught and the colors I choose often seem to stick out and draw attention to themselves when the focus is supposed to be something else. So for example choosing a murky white for a white shirt, when in reality a lavender may be better for a specific piece and it will still translate to white without being so Look At Me.

Dema: Ah, yes! I find that color is so much harder in digital art, as well. Maybe because you have access to All Of Them. At least, that has been my experience 😂

Ascindio: Yes, so tempting to say oh a blue shirt, I shall choose a Pure Blue. It is very rewarding to see little bits of progress here and there.

Dema: Yes! Do you have any go-to color schemes, or palettes you gravitate to?

Ascindio: Oowhoho yesss. It's funny you can see my main color palette shift over time when you look at all my pieces in chronological order. Right now I'm very into nature sunset color schemes. For example:

I actually have a Coolors chrome extension, so when I open a new tab it goes to a randomly selected color palette.

Dema: Oooh so very saturated, very warm?

Ascindio: Lots of purple, blue, pink, and green, with a bit of gold.

Dema: Lovely! Thank you for sharing so many great tips and rec's, as well as for taking the time to talk to me today!

Ascindio: Thank You! It was very fun!

[seelestia]

who are a few mutuals that you appreciate alot? mutual appreciation day 🥰❤️😊🤩💐✨

OOOO FUNFUNFUN!!! thank u so much for sending this in and for essentially spreading positivity, nonnie. this is appreciated ♡ also, instead of strictly moots, i decided to extend my appreciation to everyone! moots, anons, friends and readers alike ໒꒰ྀི´ ˘ ` ꒱ྀིა

some odeliaesqué sappy appreciation under the cut:

@yvnaology - one of my fav facts abt yona was that she's one of the first moots i ever had on tumblr!!! and she's a lyney kisser and a fellow aventurine kisser (#taste). also she's so silly (/aff) and easy to talk to! like u'll feel at ease around her. she deserves good great and awesome things in life, so make sure to water ur yona daily with love <3

@solarisfortuneia - mika wished me congrats when i reached 1k and i still remember it till this day <3 she's friendly in a shy/modest way and suchsuchsuch a good writer! e.g. i cry over this every day actually. mika also has her silly moments sometimes too. someone save her /j

@floraldresvi - simply the sweetest & most supportive moot EVER! vivi is full of love and she's good at giving some of that love to others <3 her selfships are like bottles of serotonin to me. 100% would drop anything and everything in my hands to support her!!! and ik she'd do the same for me <3 mwah mwah 💐💐

@monicahar - the moot who comes online once in a while and drops absolute meals when she does. ate, left no crumbs 🔥🔥 also SUPER FUNNY!!! and unhinged, i'm concerned but amused at the same time. i hope she's having a nice break!! thank u for ur past & future services ma'am. we love u 🤭🤭

@milk-violet - MIREI !!! sunshine personified but also vv precious. i'm the leader of # protecc mirei squad (real). best person to have ever appeared in my notifs and i lovelovelove when her username pops up. take care & good luck with school! IK U CAN DO IT. remember what i said: slay before ur slayed 🗣️

@xianyoon - the butterfly moot 🦋 !!! both socially and aesthetically hehe. sosooso sweet & kind. has creative projects and executes them well at that too. i personally crown her as genshinblr's best hostess™! also, send her a moodboard and she'll cherish u forever - that's one of her love languages <3 ++ her pretty & aesthetic rb's are such a good refresh for my dash. love her for it!!

@hermosacolibri - the name, 'starlight' fits them sm bcs i feel like if we were to take a peek into their mind, stars will burst out!!! /pos (<- unique complimenting skills ik pardon me). their ideas are brilliant and i can tell they put their all into pursuing their vision <3 it's truly an honor to be a witness & reader. if u want to check them out, they write over at @/starlightlacrimosazpsff !!! ★

@wolfhookk - aaaaa ri !!!! booping her x1000 rn bcs i cannot believe boop trend ended when she came online. the discrimination 😔 /j i'll always remember ri as my first ever moot on here like first, 1st, #1!!! i forever thank her for swooping into my inbox back then and she's welcome to do that even now any time she likes <3

@kaiserkisser - skylia is the true angst consumer, the realest of it!! even in different fandoms LOL. she's nice (and gremlin-ish) when u get to know her more and she reciprocates energy really well! i'll never forget the disaster of boops in my notifs /lh

@callilouv - COOL MUTUAL ALERT !!!! cool art & cool interests. truly, picasso w/ the finger and fandoms!! idk if cal still draws with his finger dhjahshsj but still vv mega cool!

@manager-of-the-pudding-bank - the grandpas & old men kisser where art thou 💔 /j loqua has that awkward & silly rizz!!! idk if she still does wax stamps but i still think it's really cool. bcs qua's just cool in general !!! hehe

@calxlu - aaaaa vi!!! the one who enables my rambles and selfships shhshsh i am so thankful <3 rambler 🤝 rambler is the best. i love talking to her and it's super reassuring to know that it's mutual! even if i take some time but i always look forward to seeing her replies in my inbox. it's like we're penpals across the screen talking abt irl stuff and our f/o's ꒰✿´ ꒳ ` ꒱♡

& honorable mention: @/zhongrin. rin does not interact with minors anymore (which i respect and so should everyone!), so we count as former moots. but !!! i still think she's an amazing person regardless <3 (note: her blog is equally as great but plsplspls be mindful of her rules beforehand.)

brainrot anon - A REAL ONE!!! always there when i come back from the grave each time. i get reminded of them whenever i look at my inbox, it's an instinct atp. their brainrots are so fun & random (but that's a charm in itself /pos) !!! tbh i love elaborating them all so never stop sending the brainworms in <3 feel free to treat my inbox as a drop-off for ur thoughts LMAO /gen. come by again soon!

michiki anon - MY COUSINNNMNMN!!! i still love and miss when they'd come into my inbox to chat. it was so nice getting to know someone in a casual way <3 i hope ur doing well wherever u are, michikinon! i'm doing well these days and i hope u are too 🤍

rix anon - their series still has me FLOOOORED. i still think it deserves a proper platform than just thru my lil ol inbox. it deserves more recognition :( but just the fact that i got to help share their writing alone is an honor of its own!!! i hope ur doing well too, rix anon <3

++ everyone who has left a nice feedback / said anything nice in my notifs or my inbox!! even a simple 'cute' or 'this is good' or even just leaving a note means sososo much to me. i'm just a measly guy in my own little corner on this site, really - so thank u thank u thank u all !!! 🫂

[nekonyaniii]

Im gonna dump this ani lore about LBC + YexuanxLilpaint over here >,<

My life has change in many ways when ever since I know LBC for these almost 3 months now.., I slowly, begin having so many improvement in life, drawing, schedule, because there's so many lesson they taught over here, I just want to support LBC with all of my heart because this game helping me in many ways <3

Especially Lilpainter and Yexuan, I often call the LIs/NPC with the cn name because I've been surfing too much in cn website-- Lilpainter and Yexuan taught me many things! That's why I hold dear about them in my heart, I might just spam a lot of them drawings in the future, idm for the rest 5 or more years I just draw them, they deserve it.(Other LIs also taught me many things too!!). So, I .. Love them a lot lot and a lot 🥹. I don't self insert in this game, I really really love Lilpainter so much, she is cute gorgeous bbg sunshine talented strong and everything. I just want to see Lilpainter and Yexuan happy together. Seeing them together can made my day because how precious they are.

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(This is kinda spoiler ? Maybe ..for yexuan's development relationship with lilpaint)

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Then, I keep falling into more YexuanLilpaint that I really want to know more about how their relationship looks like so I can perfectly capture their interaction in my drawings!

After I surfed so much and getting know about them .. their story.. their journey.. them in different stories .. i can't be normal and sane anymore..

When I think about them, my heart feel so hurt because how beautiful their relationship yet it's so .. sad ? I cannot describe it well.. It's hurting my chest whenever I think about them.. but ofc it keep making me more in love with them, you never see a relationship like them!! That's their charming! I'm so ready to get hurted more by them throw me any angst stories about them Ill eat it up all I-- (stopping myself from yapping more

I remembered when the first time I see their 2nd anniv card when they are kissing each others I cried! It's too beautiful everything the way he said "I love you" is so gentle to her, I .. I can't anymore I burst into the tears LOL. And the way how Yexuan stare at Lilpainter is always so dearly and gentle, tender, full of love like he hold her dearly in his heart. The only person he cherish is LilPainter.. I'm in tears so much about them.

Even when Young Yexuan meet Lilpainter, he still fall in love with her.. Even Lilpainter!! Her heartbeat skip when she see him drop himself.. (this scene is really beautiful in my imaginations idk why..) They are so precious together. I love them

[leafkingofbirds]

WIP Wednesday

As the first Wednesday without Cursed Heart (sob) and also because it's Wednesday, I wanted to share what I've been working on: a rewrite/expansion of the end of TCH2.

This is definitely still a work in progress and some aspects may change! But for the moment, this story will: lengthen the period of time Ella remains cursed and make it more difficult for Kieran to cure her, change what happens with the Sources and the courts, and continue Ella and Kieran's story with a more satisfactory ending (I hope!!)

Also it's from Kieran's POV because I need more angst lol.

Read more below, and I super appreciate feedback if you have any!

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Jack grits his teeth. Even bound with golden ropes of magic and pinned against the wall, his father’s body lying cold mere feet away, Jack’s bravery doesn’t waver as he levels a glare at Ella. Somehow despite everything, Kieran finds an ember of respect – respect? - flicker to life within him at this.

He has my mother’s bravery.

“Do it,” their enemy spits, still so full of hatred, even now in the room where his father breathed his last breath. “Get it over with. I have nothing left to fight for.”

Ella - his gentle, loving, merciful Ella no longer - raises her hands. At her fingertips, magic crackled with furious energy, unnatural power flowing through her mortal body, her eyes glowing white-hot and inhuman. Her face is blank of emotion, save for determination. A lust for violence which is so antithesis to her as to be grotesque. The cold rage of her aberrant magic fills the room like the suffocating pressure of a storm bearing down on them, promising wrath and violence.

This should feel victorious. A wrong, righted. Blood repaid for blood. Fae do not shy away from bloodshed, and they do not forgive debts. This is justice.

And yet everything inside Kieran screams that he cannot allow this to happen. 

His Ella is no killer. His Ella taught him mercy and forgiveness. She found the truth of him buried deep beneath cold cruelty and a broken, cursed heart and steadfastly refused to leave him there despite all he had done to her.

He sees it all suddenly as if from a vision. A year ago, he was the heartless monster intent on death, and she was the helpless one. She saved him. Stopped him. Even at the risk of her own death.

And it broke his curse.

Now, I have lost everything.

His home, his crown, his magic.

Ella is lost. 

The words pounded through his head with every furious thud of his racing heart. Ella sacrificed her heart – for him. Because he was not strong enough to defend his home, his people, or his crown. Ella knew the immortality curse was their last and only hope.

And in that last, horrible moment, he could not argue.

I promise you will not have to take care of me like this again.

His words rang in his ears and made him ashamed. He was so foolish. She was always taking care of him, even now. What use was he? 

Some Prince of Fae.

Never before had Kieran felt a powerlessness this profound. Never before had he despaired as desperately as he did now. 

She had done this for him. Let go of all that made her special, sacrificing all the love within her, all possibility of happiness and warmth. Turned herself into a shell capable only of violence and hate. Just like he had been when she’d first met him. She hadn’t abandoned him, even powerless and frightened as she was. His pride would never let him abandon her now.

Jack be damned. His rightful vengeance be damned. He had to let it go. 

Sir Monty, please forgive me.

He would not lose Ella too. 

Kieran took her wrist. Felt the magic inside her, wildly uncontrolled, unfocused. She was too new to it. She could kill him with one wrong move, one careless thought. 

Her empty, glowing eyes sharpen on him. “What are you doing?”

He held her wrist tighter as his heart sinks with agony. He can scarcely draw a full breath around the heaviness of his grief. “Saving you from yourself.”

That billowing rage washes over him now as Ella focuses it all onto him, and Kieran feels the strangest sense of calm. Their situations had reversed. He was mortal, and she was not. If she chose to kill him, he would have no recourse. None at all. He would die willingly by her hand, if he must.

But he would go to death with an unburdened conscience and a pure heart, full of love.

Ella’s voice holds an animal rage Kieran has never once beheld. “Jack killed Monty! He deserves to die!”

“Maybe he does,” Kieran acknowledges in a quiet voice, feeling his half-brother’s sharp gaze flit warily to him. “But you cannot kill him without destroying yourself. The Ella I fell in love with is no killer.”

There is a steadiness inside him now, along with the grief and the dull horror of all that has transpired. His enemy still bleeds from wounds Kieran inflicted upon him. Kieran bleeds as well.

“Then you kill him,” Ella snarls. “Take the vengeance you say you want!”

Kieran’s heart wavers, temptation rising. He glances at Jack. There is an undeniable resemblance between them. A defiant spark he well recognizes. A bravery that runs in his own blood. For a moment, he sees himself draw that iron sword across Jack's throat, watching the last of his blood stain the old floorboards of this mortal tavern, steps away from his father's body.

Perhaps, at one time in his long life, he may have done just that.

But now he turns back to his furious, beautiful, terrifying Ella, his words heavy and thick in his throat. “We have lost enough, don’t you think? You and I?”

His words seem to have no effect on her. He did not expect them to. He had hoped, but...perhaps he hoped for too much.

He remembers too well how it felt to live heartless. How his only companions had been pain and anger. Emotional pleas would not touch her. But he could still appeal to her logic. She seemed to remember she was supposed to love him; she had not yet pushed him away. Perhaps there was still a chance. 

He cradled her face in his palm. How someone could feel exactly the same and yet be an entirely different person – it tore at him inside in ways he would not allow to show on his face. 

“You were the only one who could have stayed my hand against our enemies,” Kieran whispered. “And now, I will stay yours.”

“Let me go!” Ella made a fist within the shackle of Kieran’s grip, her outburst like cold water to the face. Yet she did not leave. 

She could have broken every bone in his arm with ease, and yet she did not break from his hold. 

“Ella…” He whispers her name, hoping, waiting, wishing. But there is no change in her face.  “I promised you I would break your curse. Free you from this prison, just as you freed me. I know your heart is not lost to me. It is your precious heart that I cannot stand to carry the guilt of this violence. We have a chance now to change things. Look at me. I once shared your fate. I know what it is to live without a heart. You once told me that I have rage, pain, and violence within me, but it doesn’t rule me. It does not rule you either, my Ella. 

Ella makes a token gesture to break from him, but it’s almost as though she has forgotten she is all-powerful, and her resistance is that of a human, not an immortal. 

“You do not have to do this,” Kieran pronounces fiercely. “I am still your prince. And As Prince of the Moon Court, I command you leave Jack’s fate in my hands.”

It is this proclamation that finally makes the angry magic in the room die to nothing. Ella is staring at Kieran with wide eyes, until slowly, the overflowing magic in her body recedes enough to show her human again.

“As my prince commands,” Ella says quietly, but not without an undercurrent of bitten-off rebuttal. 

The golden ropes pinning Jack to the tavern wall disappear, and he falls limply to his knees and does not attempt to rise or flee. Instead he hangs his head, raven hair falling in his eyes, revealing the ever-so-delicately pointed tips of his ears.

Only moments later does Kieran realize Jack’s shoulders are heaving with silent sobs, so overcome is he with his own aching grief that Ella remains heartless and cursed beside him. He does not let go of her wrist, and she makes no move to break away.

Perhaps there is still hope.

“Kill me,” Jack whispers. He is utterly defeated now, spirit broken. “Send me to my father's side. It's the only place I've ever belonged. All that I've worked for is lost; there’s no place for me in this world. I’ve broken it worse than it was when I set out on this quest for justice. I must pay for all the hurt I’ve caused.”

“No, Jack,” Kieran states with the authority of a crown prince. The surety in his voice makes Jack look up at him, questioningly. There are unshed tears in his eyes. “You don’t get to take the easy way out and leave us all to clean up your mess. Your punishment shall be helping us restore what has been broken.”

Stars above, the look in Jack’s eyes reminds Kieran so achingly of their mother. How had he never seen it before now? 

You did not want to see it.

Kieran sighs. He squeezes Ella’s wrist gently, briefly, before letting go. Then he steps away from her, crossing the room, to offer a hand to his brother. 

[misc-obeyme]

RAHHHH AKWKWJDJF I DID IT, I FINALLY BEAT OG !!!! WITH LESS THAN AN HOUR TO SPARE BEFORE NEW LESSONS

except hard lessons

PRACTICALLY A YEAR AND HALF OF CONSISTENTLY PLAYING (AND LIKE FOUR YEARS SINCE I FIRST DOWNLOADED THE GAME), IT'S DONE !!!! IT'S OVER !!!!

and i feel strangely bittersweet. man, not to get sappy but like. i never would've expected to be where i am now. I've made so many cool friends ?! I'm back into drawing and I started writing ?! I'VE GOTTEN OVER MY FEAR OF COMMISSIONING PEOPLE, AND HERE'S ONE I LITERALLY GOT TODAY !! (FROM VINYXZZZ ON TWITTER)

like as crazy as life feels, obey me has been a constant the past while and has a chokehold on me, and my favorites have tumbled around on the list. But Mammon has been there since day one. I will be old and gray and his photo will be faded in my wallet. but maybe I won't have a wallet anymore so it'll be in a picture frame instead.

RAHH I'M GETTING EMOTIONAL OKAY I'M SO EXCITED FOR NEW LESSONS TONIGHT

minor spoilers ahead for lesson 80??

also the fact that only solomon remembered Mammon's name like 🤨 why's that mister sorcerer man? because you're in lo- *gets dragged offstage*

also the last chat with all of them, and asmo says "more like significant other" in response to solomon asking if mc is okay, and mammon freaks out "DON'T SAY THAT". thinking about this in my mc's story, and instead I'm like

"mammon the three of us are literally in a poly relationship"

"...the great mammon was just testin' ya! Don't want the two of you forgetting you're both mine just because you're both in the human world!"

DAAWW WAIR WHAT IF GETS SAD AND JEALOUS THAT MC AND SOLOMON STAY TOGETHER IN THE HUMAN WORLD 😭 ANGST!! OR IG HURT COMFORT BC THEY'D TOTALLY REASSURE HIM ONCE HE ADMITS IT!! actually they summon him every night so they can all go to bed together <3

SORRY IT GOT LONG OKAY I'M DONE WHEEE BYEEE

- ✨ anon (only bc I'm attached to my sign off ngl aksjd)

WOOO I'm glad you were able to finish OG!!!

Listen, when I think too much about all that Obey Me has brought into my life, it's like a weird thing that my brain cannot understand. Like I remember first downloading it and being like hm okay we'll see about this demon game, seems kinda ridiculous.

And like YES it is, but it also caused this blog to happen! And I'm a sad lonely person who made a ton of amazing online friends because of this game and I have so many lovely anons talking to me and people reading my writing and !?!?!?

It seems crazy sometimes to think all that came from this silly game! So I totally get you. I'm so glad that the game helped you make friends and start to draw and write again!! I think it's so great to have that thing that inspires us, no matter what it is!! And I love how we can all just talk about this game and connect with each other, no matter who we are. IT'S SPECIAL 😭

AH that commission is SO CUTE.

LOL I love when parts of the story feed our own headcanons and story ideas laksdjf.

I love the idea that Solomon and MC just summon Mammon to the human world every night, what a bunch of cuties!

How would your MC and Solomon deal with this when it comes to the NB storyline? I mean, do they just keep the secret from past!Mammon? Does he end up getting really attached to them without really understand why? I think it'd be hard for MC to have one partner who knows everything and the other one who has no idea...

[cerealmonster15]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

ty for the tag @unpredictable-probabilities! I don't usually do tag things but I'm feeling an exception today and I want to ramble lol let's GO!!

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

Right now, 51! I think i started using ao3 back in college with rvb fic lol. I've since orphaned 2 fics so I guess there wouldve been 53.

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

86,956

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Right now, mostly just Twisted Wonderland (and the occasional dndads, I still have a fic in my brain I kinda wanna write for that). Twst was kinda my comeback to wanting to write fics and has been my main inspiration for a lot of things and it's been the most fun i've had writing fics I think, and it's eventually what's gotten me to try to write my first multi chapter fic.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

1. Slip Ups and Lift Ups (Stardew Valley) 444 Kudos 2. A Fishy Intervention (TWST) 354 Kudos 3. Company (TWST) 249 Kudos 4. Security Cauldron (TWST) 248 Kudos [my first twst fic i think? also has some errors in it teehee oopsie] 5. Because I Care (TWST) 234 Kudos

5. Do you respond to comments?

Yes!!! I think I didn't used to? Maybe because I felt weird about my own comments changing the comment count and like it was somehow lying lol. but that's silly and i like talking to people and I Need people to Know that i Love Their Comments

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

hmmm I do not write much angst, and even when I do it's more hurt/comfort, bc permasads make ME permasad. I think it was my rvb fic "forgotten" - which i always forget was my first fic uploaded to ao3 LOL, back in 2015. ironic that my first wasnt reflective of the tone i usually write for. i don't wanna reread it to check [even tho my fics from back then are WAY shorter] bc im scared to face how i wrote when i was fresh outta hs lol BUT if i remember correctly/based on the summary, it was a doc/donut fic and I think it was about how after doc had disappeared from the future cube or whatever in canon and no one knew he was gone, i wrote a scene of doc getting upset with donut bc Of All People Why Didnt You Notice I Thought I Meant Something To You 😔 kdlsjfkdlsj i think it ended with doc walking off and donut being SAD and idk maybe they broke up, idr if they were 'officially dating' in the context of that fic. but um hashtag docnut for life.

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

most all of my fics are happy endings with an exception of like one ^ or two lol. I don't know if i can quantify those!

8. Do you get hate on fics?

not to my face if I do lol. I don't think enough people know about me to give a shit if i do stuff they dont like

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

nope!!!! i dont really like smut personally and it's not the kind of genre i have story ideas for.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

I don't think i've ever done that 🤔

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that I know of!

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

not that I know of!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

nope!

14. What’s your all time favourite ship?

girl help i cannot choose. um. well first shout out again to rvb's docnut bc u will always be strong and married in my heart. and in dndads im an oakworthy truther til i die BUT for twst. twst beloved twst i am in that pitfall of i like 50000 different ships. jamiazu is the one i write and draw the most LOL and theyre def a top fave HOWEVER. god. treycater alters my brain chemistry. rookvil marriage real. adeuce beloved fool duo for life. im physically restraining myself from mentioning more KLFJDSKLFJS especially when we get into the multiship/poly web bc god we will be here all day. i can and will be enabled but this post is already long enough GOODBYE!!!!

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

oooh ok well there was a dndads oakworthy thing I started like last year but pretty soon after I started it, we started seeing more of hermies forbidden other 'true' personality traits and i was like ruh roh this guy keeps pulling a fast one on me, i dont think the direction i had with this fic is fitting anymore. i had barely gotten anywhere with it and it wouldve been short anyway, but i think about what couldve been.... lololol and then for TWST umm. Hehe. Teehee even. Back during nanowrimo I used that as time to start 2 fics: kalim and the great relationship rescue, which is my current multichap fic about kalisil and jamiazu, it’s got about 3 chapters, and I’m still writing it. AND IM STILL GOING TO FINISH THAT ONE!!! but the OTHER one I started during that time and have NOT posted any of it yet was the stuff with my first twst oc, Char, and his place in my big caterella multiverse ideas lol. I’ve posted a bit about that story idea and done a lot of doodles and brianstorming for it, but I fear it would be too intimidatingly ambitious to stick to and I’m not sure writing one concrete fic is the right medium for it 🤔 plus I just don’t think many people would like it much LOL it would be very self indulgent and tapping into my soap opera brain. I feel nervous when I talk about it HAHDBFNTG so I’m not sure I could commit. But I still have what I wrote, and maybe I’ll figure out another way to go with it or maybe I’ll just wake up one day and say WHATEVER and write it anyway lol. I’ve gotten shyer again so we’ll see 🧍

16. What are your writing strengths?

umm. i do not know if it is a strength but i feel more light comedy and dialogue come more 'naturally' to me, but i do not know how well i actually can pull it off LOL also shorter, contained stories. Everything I write is a one shot, and I’m struggling on my recent attempt at a multiple chapter fic BDBFFBFNGD

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

hrhrnrngm more descriptive writing, i find im in the pitfalls of writing TOO MUCH dialogue. and i also feel like when i try to do more serious tone things it comes off as cringe or trying too hard kFDKLSHFLDSJ. no one's said that to me but yknow. fear and whatnot. also ending the story is. Hard. I feel like that’s always a weak part of my fics bc I sit there like WELL I WROTE ALL MY IDEAS HOW DO I WRAP THIS UP…. I worry my endings come off kind of half assed but I do my best lol 😔✌️

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

like are you asking if i would do it? or how i feel when it's done in fics i read? i dunno lol. i could maybe do spanish bc ive studied it a lot but i'd get nervous i think.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

on ao3 it was rvb bu teeeechnically back in my neoseeker forums days i was in there writing like, animal crossing or harvest moon or pokemon stuff. it was very bad bc i was like 10 years old LOL

20. Favourite fic you’ve written?

ohoho ummmm. Well I always have fun writing jamiazu and I’ve written a LOT of those lol. I have a soft spot for The Comfort of Familiarity. That’s one of the ones hats taken me the longest to write because I was really trying hard to handle it with care, as it was a less light tone than I typically do and I was trying to explore the characters and their situation in a particular way that I really wanted to come across well with who reads it. It was hard, and I’m not sure I fully got there, but ultimately I did like it quite a a bit. on the flipside, one of my more recent fics and I think now my longest oneshot to date, Blue Raspberry Mango was VERY fun to write lol. That one’s a lot more like what I typically write, silly romcom style lmao. Cater and Idia goofing, characters bickering, friendship, me trying to sneak in as many side ships into the background for funsies, jamiazu is there, it was a good time. And that one started as a prompt suggestion which I feel like often times I end up struggling with and not delivering super well… but this one ran away from me and I had a blast lol. Idikei fixed me 😌✌️

Ty for tagging me! Umm. I am too scared to tag other people 🧍 goodbye jk @officialgleamstar 🫵 You Do It

[sorry if I missed any typos or autocorrect, part of this was on my phone and I always miss SOMETHING lol]

[shadesofnavy]

Howdy, I’m a goofy lil farmer who loves soda and napping🥤

I’m VERY unprofessional and inconsistent with writing and art in general, but I love doing it, even if it takes me ages to get things done lol. I do traditional and digital drawings, may or may not open commissions someday in the future, who knows! 📝

Here's my AO3, and my art tag

I come up with [too many] AUs about my take on the FNF Funky Trio, each of them have their own tags, if interested check ‘em out. Here are my current verses

Burlington Bounty: Pico's School AU where everyone went to the same high school. Keith later becomes a wanted bounty known for ruthless murders, and he somehow manages drag his old friends in too. BFxGFxPico.

The Crooked Kind: Fantasy world AU where Keith is a reaper and Cherry is a guardian angel. Life seems okay before their school is shot up, and several other close lives are completely changed forever. BFxDarnellxNenexCherryxPico.

Mixtape : Swap AU where Keith, Darnell and Nene went through the shooting. Cherry is a rising rapper dating Pico the prosecutor who struggles to handle both his job and danger-magnet girlfriend. BFxDarnellxNene, GFxPico.

Animatronic : FNAF-based AU where Keith, after having became a successful musician and running a hit family entertainment restaurant, gets murdered and spirit now possesses the animatronic mascot of his restaurant. GFxPico

Prototype [ON-GOING FIC]: Regular Take AU where Keith's life spirals downhill. BFxPico, DarnellxGF (Be mindful of this fic's tags)

If you have any questions about them, feel free to ask : )

I try to answer as many asks as I get, just don’t bet on it. I also try to keep away from anything seriously controversial to avoid any kind of drama

My main obsession currently is Friday Night Funkin', but sometimes I'll reblog about other stuff I like. Here's some of my favorite kinds of media

Games: Sonic the Hedgehog, Call of Duty: Modern Warfare (2019), Battlefield 4, Cuphead, SSX Tricky, Undertale, Sonic the Hedgehogg, Minecraft: Story Mode (Netflix Interactive)

TV shows: Arcane: League of Legends, Ninjago, Trollhunters: Tales of Arcadia, While You Were Sleeping (K-Drama), Inborne Pair, Fermat's Cuisine, Avatar the Last Airbender, I Will Be Your Bloom, The Little Woman (K-Drama), Love Next Door (K-Drama)

Movies: Trolls, Nimona, G-Force, Ice Age (the first one), The Lion King (I cannot deny it)

Books: Warriors, Survivors, Bravelands

I'm mostly kid-friendly, (excluding my AO3 though, I suggest you back off if you're not into steamy fics) but I sometimes post about heavy topics, so just keep that in mind. I make sure to tag whenever it gets quirky. Expect to see a lot of angst now and then 🚬

[a-whispering-echo]

Prompts list - angst / fluff / free-for-all

Make something based of of one of these

let me know if you do, i'd love to see it! - Use the Hashtag:

EchoingPrompts

so i can see them! :)

for each one, there is an angst prompt a fluff prompts, and one for you to choose where you want to go with it - but you can do whatever for any of them if you so wish lol - hopefully one will draw you in!

Nightmare -

"Everyday they suffer, all thanks to you." / "A family can only grow closer." / "Did God really say, 'You shall not eat from any of the trees in the garden'?”

Horror -

"All alone, all thanks to you." / "The care that you deserve." / "Touch him, and i'll bite your head off."

Killer -

"You will never, ever be good enough." / "True Feelings." / "when I said I wanted my knife back, I didn't mean like that!"

Cross -

"Do I hate you, or do I hate me?"/ "Fluffy Stuffed Animals."/ "You are a doll, my dear."

Dust -

"You got what you deserved." / "Repentance and Forgiveness." / "Doing crazy things."

Dream -

"Where is my happy ending?” / "Golden Hour Hope." / "Lemon Meringue."

Blue -

"Bye Bye, Baby Blue." / "Victory." . "Welcome Home."

Ink -

"Empty Empathy." / "Watercolour pages." . "I just Know I Can Trust You!"

Error -

" A True Mistake." / "Amelioration" / "Coding Offence."

Reaper -

"The Crow Mocks Me." / "Sweet Relief & Sweet Release." / "I will not let you die."

Lust -

"Don't Touch Me! / Unconditional." / "Snuggled up."

Geno -

"Going where i cannot follow." / "Life goes on." / "Determination."

Classic -

"It all feels too familiar." / "Kickback." / "Glowing Blue."

[justagalwhowrites]

Bestieeeeee! These two are too much! I'm so in love with them!😍 How they know each other so well and manage to anticipate their needs, and their banter is like a wave of fresh air that makes me laugh and brightens my day!

How you picture Joel's relationship with Sarah is so good. The image of him reading to her before bed had my heart bursting with love! Why do I feel like Sarah will team up with one of them to get the other on board with the day scheme? LOL

I love the vibe I keep feeling that while it's sweet and fluffy, light and fun, at least for now, there's this angsty aftertaste I cannot get rid of, with the mention of Goldie's troubled relationship with Anna, and those words she remembered.

 ''It’s Goldie, he’d said then. It’s the worst thing that could happen, I wish it was anybody else… '' They can have so many interpretations!😳 

And the awkwardness due to physical closeness and attraction has started! But can we fault Goldie? It's Joel we're talking about, lol! And it's not only how he looks, it's how he is and how he treats her. She's doomed. And while getting laid might be quite the idea after her divorce, I'm not so sure how it will end. How she got while she pictured him during her solo time was pretty self-explanatory. If only they would properly talk!

Thanks for the chapter!♥️♥️♥️

EEEEEE HI BESTIE!

I'm so happy you're loving these two! They're so easy to write, I feel like I would hang out with either of them and they just make me so happy. I can't wait to write them as their relationship evolves and changes through the fic!

Joel is SUCH A DAD. He just took to it like a fish to water and writing him and Sarah is such a joy. They're so sweet together and he just adores his daughter so, so much. And Sarah is definitely a schemer!! She's so smart and funny and yeah, it's going to be very fun lol I can't wait.

There's definitely some angst to be had in this fic but it's not the main focus. But the tension that's there between Joel and Goldie as they try to navigate their friendship and their feelings, the ✨intrigue✨ about what happened just after prom that sent Goldie running across the country, everything surrounding Anna. There's a lot of life to contend with as they try to get their collective shit together! And yeah, that line can have a LOT of implications but Goldie very clearly took it one way, especially in the context in which she heard it. Which will be revealed eventually lol but you know me, I gotta draw that out at least a BIT otherwise where's the fun??

And yeah. I definitely don't blame Goldie. Honestly, woman's got insane self control, I'd have been trying to kiss that man in SECONDS, he's so hot, he's such a good friend like how can she NOT be in love with him?? Guess we'll just have to see what happens 👀

Thanks for reading, Bestie, and for your lovely ask!! Love you!!!!

[sneverussape]

For the fanfic writer questions (tho feel free to sub art if you prefer): ❤️🏷💕🥳🦈📗💭😎💘🚦🤩🤖🎨

God, that's like ⅓ of them... feel free to skip any you don't like, otherwise I'm all ears!! :) <3

omg this is a lot and idk if i'll be able to answer them properly so it's all going under the cut :))) (if read thru mobile some of the answers get cut off. idk why this is but it works fine on desktop lol. 🙃)

❤️ - what is your favorite line that you've written in a fic? it's definitely one of the evans!severus ones. this au is quite personal for me so everything i write or draw for it has a basis on something that i've experienced irl. it's a coping mechanism of sorts, and a way for me to understand certain things that happened in the past. my favorite lines are from the ficlet i did titled Hello World [ad infinitum] and it's:

You are ready to crawl out of your skin, jump out of your bones, and enter your child’s bloodstream. Hold him nerve for nerve. Calm the exploding suns in his mind. He births universes at least once a week. You all are surrounded by the ghosts of galaxies.

This was a fic that forced me to get into the headspace of parents forced into a near-impossible situation, but one which they powered through if only via sheer will and determination. i think the lines captured not only how the condition [epilepsy] itself manifests in the physical sense, but also the ephemerality and intangibility of it all. i was pretty chuffed too that i didn't have to think too hard about these lines; they just came to me! 🏷 - is there a tag you like to search for when looking for fanfics to read? this applies more to a03. i don't really search tags unless i'm in a specific mood for something, like specific characters, certain pairings, or "______'s A+ parenting". :)) i grew up reading untagged fics on forums and later on livejournal, so tend to ignore tags when searching a lot of the time. i mostly depend on summaries. when on ff dot net (which is actually my preferred platform over a03 because of the amount of old fics on there), i filter by genre, usually sticking to drama, angst, hurt/comfort, adventure.

💕 - what is your favorite fic that you've written? ohhh, for hp definitely the first one i ever wrote for this fandom, which is with friends like these. i love how lucius is characterized here, and how he's just a step from the edge. the desperation and the intense level of his grief interspersed with guilt was so satisfying to write and to read over and over. i also like how i had written other people's treatment of him, as though he's a bomb set to explode. he's in disgrace, but he's still managed to keep the last shreds of his dignity intact, and is still capable of doing harm when pushed.

🥳 - why did you start writing fanfic? purely for my own indulgence, like most people! :)) i like imagining what-if scenarios but also still sticking to canon for a lot of other things. i also use it for catharsis.

🦈 - which character is the toughest to write? ooooooh i'd have to say eileen prince, mostly because i cannot for the life of me decide how i want her to be. i hate the idea of her being submissive. it doesn't sit well for me at all and not something i particularly want to read and write about. i want her to have a stronger personality but can't figure out what her exact story is, apart from having had an ambiguous past with abraxas malfoy (vague hints of a previous relationship which was cut short) and tom riddle (were they friends? rivals? both?). i'm not keen on the abused wife trope mostly because it's so overused and not something i like. i'd rather have her be apathetic and neglectful than be abused (because why? why would a witch allow for it? i can't find a reason for i, especially if you have another world you can escape into), but really haven't figured out the nuts and bolts of it.

📗 - do you want to write something outside of fanfiction? if so, what about? i used to want to, when i was younger. i used to want to be a writer! for the time being, i don't want to write any original fiction. i work in a very rigorous and mentally- and emotionally-draining industry which involves a lot of strategizing and diplomatic hoo-hah. life is far stranger than fiction, and anything i can write will pale in comparison, i think. :)) i'll let life unravel first and see where i end up.

💭 - what inspires you and your writing? my basis for writing is a lot of complex emotions - mostly grief and loss - that i want to sort through, and this shows up a lot in my work. some people have said that i create too many angsty pieces but hey, i create for me. :)) i find the act of creation very satisfying and is something that helps me figure out how to deal with things. alas, my blorbos suffer for it (and i'm not sorry). it also helps that i have plenty of enabler friends! >:)

😎 - what fics do you prefer on a scale of canon compliant to wildly original? oooooh, i like both! it depends on the plot tbh. i've read so many fics that were so au the entire world was practically rebuilt, and other worlds were created for the characters to traverse through. i love those! especially if the lore was thought through really well. some fic writers could honestly give tolkien a run for his money.

on the other hand, i also love canon-compliant fics because those present its own set of challenges. imagine creating your own world within a world that's already created? fanfic-writing is so great because it stretches the limits of creation and co-creation. i love how creative people can get while working with canon and never breaking its rules. i'm always in awe of what comes out of it.

one thing i love is when people incorporate something that they know about really, really well and make that the center of the fic. it can be a hobby, a culture, a language, a sport, etc. you can always tell when an author is knowledgeable or passionate about the topic because it shines through and i love that! if i like the writing style, these types of works can make me read about anything, even about things that i normally wouldn't be interested in in real life.

💘 - is it easier to write angst or fluff? definitely angst. these are emotions that are readily accessible for me because i internalize a lot and like to figure out why i felt x when y happened. usually that involves a lot of angst. not to say that i never experience any happiness irl but happiness/fluff is also not something i think too deeply about, and therefore not something i find satisfaction writing about. it's an itch that already gets scratched enough, but soothing angst irl is not something that happens, so i do it via fic.

🚦 - what sort of endings do you prefer to write: ambiguous, bad, happily ever after, etc..? ambiguous! i like it when readers figure out for themselves what happens. i like the act of co-creation that happens in writing, specifically when the reader will have different interpretations of endings or events, and it's usually a reflection of their own experiences and thoughts. given the choice though between doing a good and bad ending, it really depends on the characters and what takes place in the plot. i normally don't have an ending figured out when i start writing. i'm more interested in the journey of growth that happens in between. my normal route is i plot that (the journey/change), then let the characters make their own way. i decide what type of ending they should have once we get there.

🤩 - what led to your interest in the fandom? i've been an hp fan for a long, long time but did not get involved in the fandoms outside of forums and various lj communities. even then i kept my distance, because i was still in school and didn't want it taking over my life lol. i couldn't afford to be on the family computer every day after school; i had to study and stuff, y'know? i was in varsity teams, orchestra, student council, etc on top of everything else so getting completely immersed in the fandom was not an option. the last few books were released while i was in university and the only fandom i could really get involved in then was the one among rl friends where we knew who was fans of which characters and we'd discuss the plot over lunch and thingss. apart from that, we were too busy to get involved in the internet wars that happened then ahahaha.

i only got really involved in fandom during COVID. i needed a space to just forget about the real world for a while and being in the snapedom worked. i got to writing again and started drawing digitally. i don't regret it at all!

🤖 - are non-fandom friends aware that you write fanfic? hahahahaha NO. i think one or two suspect it but they've never asked. these are friends i've had since childhood and who know i read fanfic (they do too), but we've never revealed whether or not we create fanworks ourselves. they know what fandoms i'm in however, and we share some of them, so i guess not knowing is the best arrangement. we like that we're able to keep our fan lives private, and are able to vent anonymously.

🎨 - if someone were to make fanart of your work, what fic or scene would you hope to see? idk to be honest! it would be interesting to see a DTIYS (draw this in your style) based on my snape. or even the hcs i have of them, a fave being catholic!snape. i have many imagined works based on catholic!snape but i'm not brave enough to attempt them, mostly because it would involve a lot of rigorous and detailed work :))) i want to draw him in a huge empty cathedral sitting on one of the last pews, while looking up at the altar in front. the idea of the altar alone is enough to put me off the entire thing. my wrist already hurts just thinking about it. :))

[stars-and-darkness]

Hello hello! Your kc autumn exchange gifter here - I am VERY excited by your request and can't wait to get to work. For brain storming purposes, there are a few spots I'd like specifics on:

Please rank the original siblings in order of most to least favorite (Klaus will obvs be featured no matter where he ranks lol) - you can choose to include Freya and Henrik if you wish

If I can account for most of your likes (humor, angst with happy ending, banter; original sibling relationship; Caroline's relationship with Liz) - how important in that case would it being canon compliant be? I have ideas that require some liberty but are filled with original sibling hijinks

No human au overall, but how would you feel about either of these scenarios: Caroline as a human with the rest of the originals as the vamps they are OR Caroline as a vampire but flashbacks to when she was human

For the relationship with Liz - is it necessary she be alive, or can she have passed but be fondly remembered and a significant portion of Caroline's life and relevant to her characterization? While also not making it a fic centered around grief, just getting your feelings on this

All this to say your ask is WONDERFUL and I'm so excited to create something you'll love!

i cannot believe you're making me rank the originals. that's like making me pick a favourite child, except i care about these fictional characters more than i would about a hypothetical child i don't ever plan to have. oh my god.

anyway, after lots of agonising, i suppose that rebekah takes the cake--i cannot help it, i am Not Normal about this woman--followed by either kol or elijah since i simply CANNOT decide, and then poor, murdered finn. i generally prefer freya and henrik dead, since they're not really characters, are they? they're symbols, there to mark the loss of innocence in mikael and esther, or the original sibs.

and ofc, klaus is in a class of his own, not that it needs to be said, lmao.

as for everything else you've outlined, i'd honestly be down for it all. fell free to flout canon compliance, especially. for instance, my .... eh, i don't want to call it dislike, but perhaps wariness, of human aus stems from the fact that it's very hard to preserve the nuance and the moral ambiguity of these characters when they're human and the stakes are different, not any innate dislike of the trope itself. caroline in s1 when she was human is incredibly dear to my heart, and honestly any portrayal of her as a vampire that doesn't draw heavily on her human days is probably lacking.

as for the final point, as my favourite minecraft youtuber (i am not proud.) would say, go bucknutty.

[dailypearldoodles]

If it helps you out I always saw the shear angst potential in a kid variation of Tilly (until the dog army came in of course) and I don't know why I liked the concept of Tilly being forced into a world where it is almost impossible for any joy.

So I always saw Tilly as someone who wore combat boots that had a feather falling VI to stop her from dying the same way as her first one. Other than the boots, she mostly wore simple over sized clothes that Pearl gave her and bandages all over her body. I have no idea if this helps at all, but this is what I saw

(btw if i ever draw more of Tilly or Froggy without Pearl, I'll be doing it on main i dont wanna clog up this blog lol if you have more questions for them please direct them over there as well haha)

I like the idea of feather falling VI and i did play with the idea of her possibly being somewhat disabled in the legs, but I also am not sure if I want to keep this AU contained in the Life series world or even in the Minecraft world.

Sorry if I'm understanding wrong but what I'm getting from this is the idea that Pearl took care of human!Tilly, while in this AU Tilly is very much older than Pearl and Pearl is also. animal. currently just wolf but I'm considering shapeshifter possibilities. However, this does give me ideas, perhaps Tilly was once taken care of by a red witch? ey?

My thoughts for this AU is that it's not a roleswap or like a retelling of the events of DL of some sort, but really just an alternate separate universe from DL. Some parallel events may occur although im not sure how yet, and the main reason for this is because of Pearl's wolf army, where Tilly is the mother of them all and i really. cannot imagine human!Tilly less than like 50 years of age

(oh yeah also. just because of personal preference haha id rather not dress them in like modern clothes i like my historical/traditional/medieval clothing lol)

[regulusblackmylove]

bl YOU should read bc my picky asf ass loved them !

(1st Edit) Assuming that you have nothing to read and is in dire need of a bl manhwa, and since I don’t gatekeep to ppl idk online, here’s my recommendation on either very cute or very sexy or just my very picky ass enjoying it a lot more than I should type of BL. Almost all of them are 18+, and if not the title will italic + bold. The only bold ones are 18+, and the choice to go on and read or not is depend on u. If they have trigger warnings, I’ll put it under the summary. READ it before u go into the manga, don’t complain later.

(2nd Edit) Ok, so ig I accidentally publish it lol but anyway it is now an updating list & pls remember I am extremely picky so it will take a while to update the list but do not fear, my loves as recommendations will flood to you with my sincerity.

1. Don’t Get Me Wrong, Boss!

Lim Iro is a BL writer, and a pretty successful one at that! His last project was lavished with praise by everyone… Well, almost everyone. Under pressure from his unimpressed parents, Iro is forced into applying for a “real” job. But instead of a cover letter, he accidentally submits an unreleased extract from his book instead! Disaster! Or maybe not…? Faced with Iro’s unconventional application, Baek Ho-ryung, the dashing CEO of Beus drinks company, is intrigued. But once Iro joins Beus, will his office life begin to emulate his steamy writing…?

Review, it’s very cute and the boss is just funny as hell. Tho, I don’t know if he is red flag or a green one. I would say greenish red flag and the shou/mc is just fucking green flag. He’s so cute, I physically cannot.

2. Nirameba Koi

Apart from the fact he’s in the student council and has quite strange tastes, Shima is an average, low-profile, quiet high schooler. Therefore, he doesn't understand why Ryuunosuke, a sports student, always glares at him every time they cross paths. Shima doesn't want to draw the punk’s attention, but the instinctive hostility of Ryuunosuke towards him troubles him, and he wants to know why the other boy hates him…

Review, sunshine x grumpy troupe but expect this time the sunshine is the gong & grumpy is the shou. It’s so cute, & the story just solid 10/10 for me. I love this so much, and the gong is on another level of being a simp when someone glares tf at u but I unfortunately understand him. Ryuu-san is just the cutes AA.

3. Unmeiteki Lovemeter

Kai Shizuki is an ex-idol who is considered a prince at school, but he has a secret. He can see balloons above people's heads that give away their true emotions towards him. One day, while being chased by fans, Shizuki is unexpectedly saved by Shinozuka, the supposed bad boy. Even more surprising, Shinozuka's balloons are bigger and glossier than any Shizuki has ever seen before.

Review, IT. IS. SO. CUTE. If you need something to boost yourself after so much stress day, I would say, this is DEFINITELY the go to manga for that. Not much drama (imo) & not much angst, it’s just plain fluff. I am so in love with this CP. The gong is just so…. simp. He’s me fr.

4. Tonari No Usutsuki

While aware he’s attracted to the same sex, Takase has been living and lying because of his pride. One day, he gets to know Ito, who is always waiting for his male lover at a cafe. Takase, who was interested in how Ito always gave his true feelings to his lover, is strongly shaken by the unrelenting Ito whose tears are pure with the betrayal. However, even though he wishes to be more than friends, he can not say that he’s gay.

Review, I just love the green light gong and the second chance that shou get in love because so true baby bag that green flag who’ll slave for u.

5. Hoppe Ni Himawari

A story about a cute chubby guy in the gardening club who admires his classmate, the baseball team captain.

Review, this cures my depression, my gastric problems and my life problems. Thank you.